Pitches That I Own

i miss my violin..

Vincent, The Victorian Rose

it feels real pathetic listening to u sometimes..

I feel pathetic actually..

why do i have friends that r being reluctant n reject-ive all the time?

everybody have their own life, ditch the old n chasing after the new ones.

i feel bad bout it.

cuz to some, i m the ' old ' one..

;D

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care none for those who doesnt concern bout u..

yeah, i gt it yo~

;D

no, i dun...

=|

Pardon Me, I Am A Born Sadist.

it's kinda like a holiday season now.

most ppl r having their hols o breaks ( for a few weeks )

some r having major exams finals, etc.

i m not in neither.

i m just having my usual formulated class from 8.30am - 4pm.

8 hours a day, everyday from monday

to friday.

say, i dun have a life.

i admit it.

;D

i just wish to do thgs in an impromptu way.

IMPROMPTU IMPROMPTU IMPROMPTU!!!!

well, i think i m sacrificing much for this course.

n hey, dun judge yet!

i do know bout theories for sacrifices!!

but then again, if this is the course that i wanna pursue, i dun mind at all.

it's NOT.

a 'No No'.

No

well again, who can i blame?

i screwed up my high school!!

Q : who play too much in high skul?

A : Me

Q : who din study at ALL during high skul ?

A : Me

Q : who screw this ?

A : okay, Me again.

Q : blame who ?

A : Me..

Q : consensus?

A : i need to bear all the consequences in whichever way.

say, i m dramatic.

say, i m melancholic.

i admit 'em.

looking at my friends + ppl around me, they gt scholarships, doing medic, dentistry, law, engineering, going overseas, etc etc..

n i m stuck here, feeling envious..

even the one with poor results r able to b in some medical field!!

bless them for all the wealth that they have.

bless their parents for the willingness to " invest " so much for such lousy grades..

Q : change course?

A : hey, u pay for my 80k bond.

ahhh~ if u ask me whether if i wanna reconsider high skul again, i will say YESCH!!!

;D

i love those ppl there, not the skul though.

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skuls means teachers, skul's management, rules n regulations, etc..

u know that sorta cluster skul do have idiotic rules.

additional recent paranoia fact : ppl HERE r pissing me of everyday!

FUCK YOUR OWN BLOODY ARSSHOLE, YOU FUCKFACE!!

they r :

1. cumslut

2. shitbrains

3. another skank

4. another asswipe

5. lotsa bullshitting ppl around

母輪ピンクサロンぎゃるだ!!

↑ that's really bad

okay, i shud stop cursing..

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p/s : pardon me, but i m a born sadist! bear it dude o shusshhh away!

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If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Glee!!!

i m seriously obsessed with GLEE!!!

;D

If I'm not back again this time tomorrow, Carry on..

Mama I just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh, Didn't mean to make you cry,
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow,
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters
Too late, my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time
Goodbye, ev'rybody, I've got to go,
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooh, I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

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well, watched Harry Potter 7 today n uhmm...

not that good after all.

perhaps, separating it into two parts aint a good idea.

i wanna reread the series again.

my parents, sister n sister - in - law r flying to Shanghai today.

i wish them Nyappy Holidays

most importantly, have a SAFE n sound journey.

plane crashes quite often nowadays.

=\

Nyappy Birthday~

Nyappy Birthday~

1. smoke less

2. have a carefree-er life

3. wish u well with ur partner, he miss u alot..

4. drug free too..

;D

Belittle Me

u dun have to b awake to cry.

if ur parents have u for a reason, then the reason better exist, cuz once it's gone, so r u..

i had left the table n more importantly, nobody noticed.

i cry sometimes, cuz it hurts. it does, to b honest, i guess u could say that it hurts to b me.

they did it to trynna belittle me, to take away my pride

i have a heart n i have feelings. i feel that when u did that to me, it's not nice

i was being very misunderstood, but yet try desperately to b part of this world.

Sing Some Hope To Me...

i wanna help her in whichever way that i m able to.

she used to b a very pro gymnast in her secondary years.

n now she's on wheelchair.

i saw her waiting for the bus to unload, helped by her course mates to gt down.

smtg went wrong with her brain, that's wat it is.

she told me the diagnosis, i forgot.

;(

i m kinda emo looking at her like that.

but, she's positive.

very..

hope that she will b well.

*cross my fingers*

ahh~ gigs had started half an hour ago!!!

tropicana city mall!!

no~~ i m stuck in the hostel now..

damn fuck~

T__T

Graffiti

eyed a b-boy dance in the cafeteria today.

WOW!!

okay, well, that wow aint for those b's.

their skill aint that good though compared to those that i had seen before back in my hometown.

so the cheers is for my own satisfaction!!!

the last time i have a look-see dance, bands, etc was quit

e sometime ago.

yeah, i had lost touch with movies, n , now, this..

i felt ' YaY '.

complacent n contented!!

very much !!

ehehehehe..

;D

but...

why is there always a ' but ' in life?

one of my favourite band will gig in tropicana mall tmr!!

i cant go..

one of my favorite band again, will b playing in MMU this thurs.

i cant go, again..

the fact is that, I WANNA GO!!!!

damn fuck~

;C

*runs to a corner*

*emo*

sleepy, ciao~

p/s : i dislike carrots..

=|

Inspirational Van Gogh

ahh~ wat a day, wat a day.

watched ' The Child's Eyes ' with Joey n Xinyi.

oh, it was really a gas!

i dun mean the movie..

so, u can guess wat i m talking bout.

hmm..haven bust into the cineplex for quite some time already till the day when i watched charlie st cloud with jia yen n chai chai.

besides, i reckon that i m kinda lost in touch with the cinematic world..

wat a life..

c'est la vie?

Non, il n'est pas..

somehow, life here is as flat n unvarnish as ever.

classes, assignments, exams, posting...

ntg creative, ntg judicious, ntg innovative..

i m gonna b a numb-head soon.

i m one now though.

just so, i wish i m not that block.

C;

we were asked to prepare any topic to b discuss.

ADULTS.

oftentimes, we heard ppl label adults as a confusing being.

well, i totally capitulate with that statement.

who wont?

we all know that they manipulates n very uncertain.

i m gonna b that one, soon.

no complains for that's one of the stages of being the smartest n well developed cognitive organism on Earth.

blame who?

blame bout ?

nah~ leave it alone.

i watched a movie n a part of the script derived that only ppl who dun have to worry bout their living can b naive.

how true was it?

well well well..

mine will b Indigo And Crystal Adults.

i got to know that quite long ago from my sister.

just, i dun really check 'em out.

;D

smtg enthralling though if u look in deeper.

*yawn*

sleepy, ciao~

C:

Potrayed Façade

once, someone asked me this Q before,

Q : if i die today, will u regret avoiding me?

私は実際にそれを好むね？

takumi kun series!!!

Takumi Kun 1 : Soshite Harukaze Ni Sasayaite

そして春風にささやいて

Takumi Kun 2 : Niji Iro No Garasu

虹色の硝子

Takumi Kun 3 : Bibou No Detail

美貌のデタイル

にゃああ～～

私は実際にそれを好むね？

とてもかわいいカップル

C:

Eat, Play, Win Together

the day before yesterday's night i dreamt of DOMINIC ONG!!!

of all the ppl in my list, him.

if i can choose, i wanna dream of someone else..

*big grin*

oh well, never mind cuz i miss him too, somehow.

though we r now studying in the same school, BLIMEY~

i haven gt the chance to meet him in school!!

wonder where he hide himself.

ahahahahaha..

reminiscence..

recalling those days when we eat together, play together n win together..

C:

we r like brothers..

ehehehe..

Damn Fuck!!

i m uberly ANGRY!!

angry Angry ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!

damn fuck damn fuck damn fuck damn fuck damn fuck!!

DAMN FUCK!!!!

p/s : just so, many thgs dun worth the sacrifice, so, u know, be self- centered.

now that i learnt..

Bad Reads

sigh..

i dun find awesomeness in Danielle Steel's books.

since secondary skul, i always saw her books in the library.

the whole collection of it.

the same with sunway's library.

i trynna read it..

surprisingly unsatisfactory..

sigh...

kyaaa~~ Miyavi n his daughter!!!

oh, i miss that guy!!!

私はあなたがいなくて寂しい

guitar samurai!!

i will b proud to have a dad like this.

but still, i m contented with my own lovely father~

C:

Brusque Black Parade

LOSS

such disconsolate word.

apparently when we r discussing bout that topic in class today, we were asked to name smtg, be it anythg but an object not a human that we cant afford

to lose.

seemingly, i dun really have any objects that i cant afford to forgo.

at least, it doesnt perturb me that much.

not that pertinence.

guess i m not appreciative of watever that i have?

perchance..

some ppl suggest gold earing, cell phones, dog, laptop n a house.

i laughed when i heard bout ' HOUSE '

i should not.

if u ask wat had i really lost, i wud have said my chance of a better education.

i screw it totally.

my fault. let it be it for there's ntg that can be done.

grief?

yeah, i will. even up til now.

why not? i m suppose to remember how i relinquish it.

ah~ if u ask me who i cant afford to lost, that'll b very much easier.

my brother.

i love him~

Life Will Be Better

‎1 of every 10 people born is Gay.

That means 1 of every 10 people is instantly put down, given bad labels, left alone, put in a minority and so much more all for something they didn't ask for.

Many Gay teens are committing suicide as a way of escaping.

If you want to tell them ...life will get better and you respect them for who they are copy and paste this.

Most of you won't, but let's see the 5% of you who will.

Painted Cowardly

i had missed u so much.

now that i see u, but we dun talk...

u can tell how much i miss u...

Call Me A Nerd

i swear.

i m gonna finish reading ALL the non-fic books in Sunway like i did in CIJ ( 2 ) and IJC.

ehehehehe~

fuhh~ finally i found where they ' hide ' all those non-fic books.

kakakakass~

it had been quite rainy nowadays but today was a lil different.

where had all the heavy clouds gone to?

grrr...

知識は力である ( Knowledge Is Power )

sometimes, i just wish that i know anythg n everythg.

i wish that i have unlimited knowledge.

I WANT UNLIMITED KNOWLEDGE!!!!

why?

KNOWLEDGE IS POWER

知識は力である

Jell'O

made some jello for the charity carnival in Sunway tmr.

eco- friendly, to help those needy students in Sunway.

see, not everybody in Sunway is rich.

Bird Tamer

ah~

i found that piece of drawing from a gay file of mine.

i still remember how i came out with that piece.

there's this day when i was being scolded by my class teacher, also my pure maths

teacher in F6 n i m just too rebellious to listen to her.

i started taking out the ' lazy ' chinese brush n sketch.

meanwhile, she kept on with her nags..

XD

in the end, she gave up n told me that there's a Comic Fiesta at the end of the year..

kakakass~

that's another piece which i found in the same file.

well, it's also sketched using the same chinese brush i gt from Seo Yiie Huern.

anyway, there'r some Hong Ling's work n Seo's work there too.

my chinese name n the color tone were by Hong Ling while ' Green Is The New Pink ' was by Seo.

(>__<)

that's pretty lame actually..

oh, not forgetting the failure to color the piece.

in the end i photocopy another one.

i spoiled... NO!! WE spoiled the ori one.

damn~

WE shud have color the photocopy ones.

ceh~

Why Does Everything Looks Blue?

after so many days, i m still grieving over my lousy As'

7 subjects, 7 As

but those r really lousy..

i played too much.

i had always acknowledge that whenever i played too much i will ended up like this.

n yet, history repeats.

damn fuck~~

teach me, how can i discipline myself??

that's the BIG Question.

(>__<)

tiresome day today..

waited for so long at KL Sentral for U63.

searched 2 Popular n 2 MPH for The Death And Life Of Charlie St Cloud.

went to Muar yesterday to walk on those stones.

feet hurts.

hurts more when i need to stand n walk so much today.

damn again.

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bad day..

ciao~

p/s : owh~ there's a fund raising charity stuff coming up this Tues at my school.

i feel no enthusiasm..

The Big Picture

these days i just wanna read read read and continue reading.

i had been very slacky, that makes me numb-headed now..

words r hard to appear in my pea brain..

:(

damn pathetic

reading prevail upon my silentness..

ciao~ i m off to read again~

*waves*

Bloody Roses

it makes me feels like u had lost my contact number, like totally.

do u?

i had always know that we have our own life to move on, to carry on n to complete certain appointed responsibilities.

i wan nothing much than just a " Hi, how are you? "

that will b fabulous enough.

good friend, though i m not sure anymore whether i m one to u.

for sometime, i dare not write anythg to u afraid that those bug u.

i m sincerely happy for ur achievements.

n i m truthfully ecstatic over ur prodigious days.

somewhat, i wish that i m a part of those wonderment.

hope to hear from u soon.

u know very well that i miss u..

answer my wish, will ya?

Genre = Children English Literature

call me a pig..

i had been sleeping since 4.30pm yesterday till 7.15am today.

that's like bout 15 hours already!!

;D

i think my nose doesnt ' run ' that fast anymore..

sleep therapy perhaps?

ahahahaha..

AHHH!!!! i saw Mary Poppins books in the Sunway Library today!!!

i used to read 'em when i was in primary years.

there's this one book , " Mary Poppins Comes

Back " that i haven read.

YaY~