Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Pardon Me, I Am A Born Sadist.




it's kinda like a holiday season now.

most ppl r having their hols o breaks ( for a few weeks )
some r having major exams finals, etc.

i m not in neither.
i m just having my usual formulated class from 8.30am - 4pm.
8 hours a day, everyday from monday
to friday.

say, i dun have a life.
i admit it.

;D

i just wish to do thgs in an impromptu way.

IMPROMPTU IMPROMPTU IMPROMPTU!!!!

well, i think i m sacrificing much for this course.
n hey, dun judge yet!
i do know bout theories for sacrifices!!

but then again, if this is the course that i wanna pursue, i dun mind at all.
it's NOT.
a 'No No'.
No

well again, who can i blame?
i screwed up my high school!!

Q : who play too much in high skul?
A : Me

Q : who din study at ALL during high skul ?
A : Me

Q : who screw this ?
A : okay, Me again.

Q : blame who ?
A : Me..

Q : consensus?
A : i need to bear all the consequences in whichever way.

say, i m dramatic.
say, i m melancholic.

i admit 'em.


looking at my friends + ppl around me, they gt scholarships, doing medic, dentistry, law, engineering, going overseas, etc etc..
n i m stuck here, feeling envious..

even the one with poor results r able to b in some medical field!!

bless them for all the wealth that they have.
bless their parents for the willingness to " invest " so much for such lousy grades..

Q : change course?
A : hey, u pay for my 80k bond.

ahhh~ if u ask me whether if i wanna reconsider high skul again, i will say YESCH!!!

;D

i love those ppl there, not the skul though.
==
skuls means teachers, skul's management, rules n regulations, etc..
u know that sorta cluster skul do have idiotic rules.

additional recent paranoia fact : ppl HERE r pissing me of everyday!

FUCK YOUR OWN BLOODY ARSSHOLE, YOU FUCKFACE!!

they r :

1. cumslut
2. shitbrains
3. another skank
4. another asswipe
5. lotsa bullshitting ppl around


母輪ピンクサロンぎゃるだ!!
↑ that's really bad
okay, i shud stop cursing..

==

p/s : pardon me, but i m a born sadist! bear it dude o shusshhh away!


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If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song



Sunday, November 21, 2010

Friday, November 19, 2010

If I'm not back again this time tomorrow, Carry on..



Mama I just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh, Didn't mean to make you cry,
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow,
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters
Too late, my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time
Goodbye, ev'rybody, I've got to go,
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooh, I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

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well, watched Harry Potter 7 today n uhmm...
not that good after all.


perhaps, separating it into two parts aint a good idea.
i wanna reread the series again.

my parents, sister n sister - in - law r flying to Shanghai today.
i wish them Nyappy Holidays

most importantly, have a SAFE n sound journey.

plane crashes quite often nowadays.

=\



Thursday, November 11, 2010

Nyappy Birthday~


Nyappy Birthday~

1. smoke less
2. have a carefree-er life
3. wish u well with ur partner, he miss u alot..
4. drug free too..

;D


Friday, November 5, 2010

Belittle Me




u dun have to b awake to cry.


if ur parents have u for a reason, then the reason better exist, cuz once it's gone, so r u..


i had left the table n more importantly, nobody noticed.


i cry sometimes, cuz it hurts. it does, to b honest, i guess u could say that it hurts to b me.


they did it to trynna belittle me, to take away my pride


i have a heart n i have feelings. i feel that when u did that to me, it's not nice


i was being very misunderstood, but yet try desperately to b part of this world.




Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Sing Some Hope To Me...



i wanna help her in whichever way that i m able to.

she used to b a very pro gymnast in her secondary years.

n now she's on wheelchair.
i saw her waiting for the bus to unload, helped by her course mates to gt down.

smtg went wrong with her brain, that's wat it is.
she told me the diagnosis, i forgot.

;(

i m kinda emo looking at her like that.
but, she's positive.
very..

hope that she will b well.
*cross my fingers*

ahh~ gigs had started half an hour ago!!!
tropicana city mall!!

no~~ i m stuck in the hostel now..
damn fuck~

T__T


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Graffiti


eyed a b-boy dance in the cafeteria today.
WOW!!

okay, well, that wow aint for those b's.
their skill aint that good though compared to those that i had seen before back in my hometown.

so the cheers is for my own satisfaction!!!
the last time i have a look-see dance, bands, etc was quit
e sometime ago.

yeah, i had lost touch with movies, n , now, this..

i felt ' YaY '.
complacent n contented!!
very much !!
ehehehehe..

;D

but...
why is there always a ' but ' in life?

one of my favourite band will gig in tropicana mall tmr!!
i cant go..

one of my favorite band again, will b playing in MMU this thurs.
i cant go, again..

the fact is that, I WANNA GO!!!!
damn fuck~

;C

*runs to a corner*
*emo*

sleepy, ciao~

p/s : i dislike carrots..
=|